This is the most awesome thing going in my life right now. Maybe that is slightly melodramatic...but the healing process from my crash is not going according to the schedule I had in mind. Coach K basically broke up with me on Training Peaks after I described my ride as "followed by headache". Or in her words, she decided she "needed to be firm" when she said I needed to write off racing for at least a month so I didn't have pressure on myself to try to be training when I wasn't healed.
So I'm in full on chill mode (or as much as you can be with trying to work and chase a Dman around) until the headaches are gone and the shoulder is doing better. I was somewhat devastated by this but I'm trying to make the best of it...I'm enjoying the hang time with Dman and the Hubs for sure...And will be able to make some plans to see some friends since there is no travel for a while now. I will try to get stuff done at work though that is definitely a zone that gives me bad headaches and makes me feel like shit when I stay for more than a few hours.
I will do what I can do.
I can ride...sort of...No training and as soon as there's weirdness I have to back it off. I went for a really chill easy ride with a neighbor (badass awesome Ann who is also a mom) yesterday which was really fun. Today I rode with some friends, Lizzie and Diane, who hadn't been on their bikes really at all. It was a super mellow but really fun time catching up with them and enjoying being outside with friends for a few hours.
So I'm dialing it back...Trying to be positive. I have had some massive freakout moments and major doubts about everything. But I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. I got some great advice from teammate Liza that instead of thinking about certain races I want to come back for, I just need to tell myself I don't know when I'll race, I'll just see how I feel when I'm on the bike and take it day by day, and make decisions when I'm ready.
Here's to trying to be present and living in the now!